We Were Made for More

Is there a whisper in your heart that tells you you were made for more than what you're doing right now?

I have one and it is so incessant I struggle to relax at times.  It pushes and prods me, at times, to distraction. It has a Spiritual connection because my particular voice whispers about a calling God gave me years ago that I haven't yet felt like I was fulfilling.  It is an ache, an irritation, a drive, an inspiration, a push.  And it doesn't stop.

A few weeks ago I asked God to quickly get rid of anything that was getting in the way of my calling.  I told Him that if I freaked out because of too many changes too fast that I would trust Him to walk me through it.  I don't know what I expected, but what I got was getting roped into a class I didn't intend to keep teaching, asked to give up cable television (one of my all time favorite things to do), put on a budget, and impressed to drastically change my diet. Predictably, I got mad.  I felt trapped and irritated to find myself living a life that on the outside looks more restricted than the legalist religious crap that I embraced growing up.

I have wrestled with this until the moments I remember I asked for this.  I am tired of living with the ache of knowing I'm not all I'm meant to be.  That there are things that God has designed for me that I am missing because I have to watch the next episode of Castle...but seriously are Beckett and Castle not adorable?  I digress...

I was praying this morning about all these things God has me doing...living on a budget, letting go of fear around money, eating right, exercising, letting there be enough quiet in the house that I can hear His voice.  I noticed that the benefits have been outweighing the struggles and that there is something inside me that is doing things differently, it is not me.  When I struggle I have been looking up and saying, "This is your problem."  I didn't grow up really understanding that I can't do anything on my own, but I can do anything with Him.  This morning I felt Him tell me that this is what will prepare me for the more He has for me.  That as I learn to be faithful to these things, my faith is being prepared for more.

So bloggers, what is getting in the way of your "more?"

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