Impossible

I've been reading a book called "The Bondage Breaker." I'm struggling with it to some degree, wrestling with some new concepts.  But of one thing I am certain; it has given me a new perspective on Spiritual battles.  Satan attacks our thoughts.  If he can distract me from who I am in Christ then he has won that particular battle and I am left with ashes.  And I have been sitting in ashes to some degree this past week.  One time the voice said that God takes away everything I love.  Other times the voice says that none of this (business building) will work and I should just stick to watching dreams happen in the movies.  I don't believe these voices, but this past week I did.  Yes, God has asked me to give up many things that I love.  A little at a time I have chosen to walk away from those things and as I look back at the truth of what happened, I have NEVER regretted it.  God has ALWAYS given me back five times what I could have ever hoped for.  Following God has not been easy, but it has always been worth it.  This woman that I've become.  This woman that I like.  She is here because of God.

I've taken a break from The Bondage Breaker to let it settle and started a book by Davis Bunn called, "My Soul to Keep."  I love Davis Bunn because he manages to write killer good stories without losing the Spiritual connection.  He manages to capture what hearing from the Holy Spirit feels like and writes characters that put it all on the line when they hear from God.  So this morning I was feeling morose and wanting to hide away.  I read for awhile and without giving away the plot, the characters met a disaster and one of the main characters says the following:

"'It's impossible that I would have brought together a major list of investors by calling around a prayer chain.  It's impossible that I've gotten a dozen calls since I got word of the fire, and didn't tell a soul myself.  It's impossible not one of those investor folks would pull out.  It's impossible the only thing they've told me is they're praying hard as they know how.'  Bobby stabbed his finger at the ashes. 'A sign I said and a sign I meant.  Now here's what we're going to do.  We're going to join hands and we're going to pray.  And we're going to ask God to be just what He is.  A great God.  A God of miracles.  We're going to thank Him.  You know why?  Because right here, we have a chance to watch our Lord perform."

I started crying.  My chest feels like it is too small for what is happening inside.  This paragraph is not fiction to me.  I'm choosing to live a life that is not just a story on a page.   I believe that God can be trusted and so I can say to the people on the other side of this screen, watch us.  This blog is just the beginning of what God is going to do.  He has put a burning in our hearts...literally it sometimes hurts;  for women to be free Spiritually, emotionally, and financially.  For all of us to know that His promises are real and letting Him be in control is...

You know the feeling you get inside when you're watching someone you love and they don't know you see them?  The feeling from a song that speaks your soul?  The feeling when you stand out in the rain with your face uplifted and arms outstretched?  They are all intangible moments but they are real.  God is our reality.  His word is our truth even when it doesn't make sense.  You can depend on that.

Nothing that happens will be me, or Gale, or Kathy, or the other women and men who will join our team.  God will get the credit because He's making it happen.  We're just enjoying the love, the song, and the rain.  We hope you'll join us.